Ugh...Rewrite...Never as good as the first time. It's like asking someone to make a particular funny noise again...So not the same! Grrrr! Slightly upsetting.
So to answer my trivia question from last time: I asked "How tall are you?" To which his response was "5'6"....he is not...he's closer to 6 ft. I should have know what a sarcastic butthead I was getting involved with at that very second :P
So onto today's blog (that I've already written once....maybe God is gonna hand me some great morsel that I missed the first time. He could not possibly have supernaturally erased it by being mad that I spoke the truth.... :D) Everyone knows that moment, that moment when your world's worst enemy, someone who did you so WRONG, gets a sweet, fat stack of payback handed to them. Everyone likes it (even though we are not supposed to...yes we all know). But, the moment that friend calls and they say, "Hey! You're never gonna believe...." so on and so forth and the only reaction anyone can manage is either a smile or a hahahahahaha! I KNEW IT!!! Although, it's never really enough to completely satisfy us, it's enough to make most of crack a smile for a millisecond.
It's called Karma. You hear it all the time. "Boy...that karma...she's a B&*%$!!! I LIIIIIIIIIKE HER!" I love talking about karma. I think it's because I feel like she's missed some particular people that deserve a good bit of havoc wreaked on them. Then I try to remind myself that karma is always referred to in a feminine manner. Refer to quotation concerning karma above: she, her, and let's not forget that nasty word referring to female dogs. So maybe karma, being a woman, tends to bottle things up. Meaning ten years down the road, and she explodes on the unsuspecting individual....don't look down on me. Everyone knows at least one person that deserves a bottled up, ticked off karma catastophe!
Here's where most of us mess up, myself included, but not really that much because I pride myself in being able to walk away from a lot of situations that most would give me approval to AT LEAST verbally obliterate someone. Now with that said, do not get me wrong. If you come to me and start a conversation about someone I have a very low opinion of, you will receive every bit of history, previous events, and evidence to be submitted in support of Case #247 in "Erica 'Does Not Like You" County Court of Conversation". Here's the deal. I don't just dislike people. I don't just dream up reasons to not like somebody as some people do. EVEN if I've heard everything bad in the world about you, if I meet you, I will like you until you give me a reason not too. EVEN if and when you do that, I will probably STILL be nice to you. Then...... there's that line (and there's a very select number of people that have crossed it for the record)....and depending on the severity of your actions or the quantity of the times you have betrayed me....you can consider yourself archived and submitted to the evidence room to be filed under "Future Low Opinion Conversations". You see, and most people that know me in the slightest know this, I speak the truth. I rarely sugarcoat...sometimes I do if I feel it's a sensitive situation and I need to choose my words wisely or if I know I'm dealing with an extremely sensitive person. I also do not make up stories and lies about people to make myself feel better about my opinion. If I say, Jane Doe came and stole my cookie. You better believe she stole my cookie. As far as purposely attempting to ruin somebody life....oh have I wanted to? SURE! All of us have....but no, most of us don't.
Back to what I was saying, (I'm really great at getting off subject, my dad gave me that trait and it drives my husband BONKERS! :P) where some of us mess up is when we try to take matters in our own hands. In your mind you think, "Oh this person deserves it. They have been awful to me....this is their karma". First let me explain this, when you take matters into your own hands. It's no longer karma. Or let's really call it what it is. Even folks that don't go to church know this. It's call "You reap what you sow". The Lord says "Vengeance is mine"----mine is not you for the record, the Lord is referring to himself if you needed help with that. He will take care of it in His time. I'm a big believer in that and it's why, MOST of the time I have enough willpower to step away before I get myself in trouble. Back AGAIN to what I was saying. It's no longer karma when you take matters into your own hands....it turns into "This is the worst person I've ever met in my life, so I will do everything I can on God's green earth to wreak havoc on this person, because they deserve every bit of what they get and I hope they rot in hell after it's all said and done. I will live my life to make them miserable in every way, shape, and form and do my darndest to ruin any shred of a reputation they have left".......so you do it.. You pull every nasty string you can and master manipulate ways to destroy this person's life.....you happy?
No. Of course not. Because NOW, you have to live with yourself. You are now trapped in your pathetic web of lies and exaggerrations that you've created about this person and the only person you have hurt is yourself. Did you slow them up? Sure. Yeah they had to deal with some problems that you created. But, guess what, you failed....because even after all your hard work, they STILL have friends and they STILL crack a smile every once in awhile. See, you wanted them at suicide's door, beaten down with a deep, dark depression. But, they're not. NOW, you have to wake up every morning and look in the mirror and convince yourself that you're an ok person. Some people wake up at this point....and some people never do. I pray for those people, that can literally do these types of things over and over and over again. What a miserable way to live. To hold such a heavy grudge for things that happened 5, 10. 15, 20, heck 50 years ago!
This is why I TRULY love the concept of reaping what you sow. Because, if someone really does you wrong, you don't have to do anything. It's like it's magically done for you. You get that phone call one day from whatever friend you have that's in the know and it's like you get transported to 1952 on a warm, summer day while hanging fresh 'clean linen' scented laundry.....Everyone say it with me..."Ahhhhhh yes.....BOY...that karma...she's a...." :P
Besides, isn't it so much sweeter when you didn't have to even stick a finger in the pot to stir it. The view of the karma movie is so much better while basking under the warm karma sun, in your karma beach chair, and with your favorite cold umbrella karma drink.....hahaha