Anyways, in this conversation, it was said to me 'Do not try sprinkle holy water on me'...
Now. I laughed when I read that because in no way, shape, or form was I trying to sprinkle holy water. But today it's made me think about several different situations in my life where my 'friends' or 'acquaintances' made statements that they didn't want to tell ME something cuz I would look down on them or that I thought I was perfect.
Really? I REALLY beg to differ. I don't why in the world anyone would think that I thought I was perfect? Cuz I KNOW that I'm far from it. With that said, there is a standard moral code that I live by that I don't think is out of the ordinary. I respect my husband and our marriage, I take care of my kid/bonus kids, and I try to do the right thing. Do I think there is 'black and white' and 'right and wrong'? ABSOLUTELY. And you better believe I stand up for what I believe in. There's simple things in life that are just that. Black and white. Right and wrong. Do I always pick the right thing? No, of course not. Hello, human over here. For the most part though, yeah, I do my best to make good decisions no matter how much I can be tempted sometimes.
It makes me think about a time that I told my husband (and for all you adult softball players, do not think you have hurt my feelings in this cuz they honestly weren't, it was just a thought that ran across my mind lol)...in the middle of a conversation and I don't remember exactly what the whole subject was but I said that I felt like everyone that I always played ball with liked me, but I never got invited to anything outside of softball...although I knew they all did things together...a lot. I remember that I felt like they didn't think that I liked to go out and do things or that I was goody-goody (this was back during my singleness) etc etc. Maybe they thought I was gonna sprinkle holy water on them or something? Lol or heck maybe they just didnt like me that much? Lol I dont know. Then a time, when one of my BEST friends of all people, didn't want to tell me some things that were going on in a relationship and her response was 'I didn't want you to think bad of me'...seriously???
Honest to goodness. Even though, I'm heavily opinionated, I'm very objective all in the same breath. I have a friend that when he wants to know the honest truth on something calls me and the first first sentence out of his mouth is (this has happened several times) 'Hey, I need to ask you something. I know your objective'...to this day I know he'd still do it if he really needed something important. I don't think I've ever scolded my friends for something they did. Was I honest? Yeah. That's what they've grown to expect from me, I think.
I've done plenty I'm not proud of and so has everyone else. And if you come to me, I'm gonna lay it out cut and dry for you. But ya know what, good friends appreciate that. And if you can't be honest with your friends, who can you be honest with? You don't do anyone favors by lying to them and agreeing with them when you know it's wrong. But I don't think any friend that has come to me in confidence about something would say I made them feel worse. I could be wrong, but I don't feel like I am. I feel like my friends always walk away from me smiling whether we just talked about death, drugs, bad relationships or sunshine, puppies, and rainbows.
So, on that note, regardless of what you think you know from Facebook, my public service announcements, or soapboxes, I don't think I'm perfect or that I'm gonna sprinkle holy water on you (still funny to me lol) But my apple didn't fall to far from my father's tree and I will continue to give my opinion and I will always share my personal experiences with someone. Whether that gets me 5 friends or 500, so be it. I stay true to myself. That's how God made me and He loves me.
Have a wonderful, rainy day!